Alone, you stand at an open symbolic doorway—waiting—weariness and frustration echo in the vast emptiness—hopelessness becomes the only greeting. Despite concerted efforts and best intentions your attempt to create and experience an enriching and robust spiritual meditation you discover mediocrity interspersed with momentary flashes, pulses of intrusive thoughts—all of your earth-concerns have come to converse in the quiet.
In your toolbox is a minimum of patience and a maximum of expectation as you embarked upon this seemingly impossible journey, minutes have grown into inconceivable monumental blocks of time and soon you will mark your calendar, an entire week has passed with nary an aha moment.
Your conclusion is failure, voiced in proclamations: “I’ve tried meditating and I can’t. Meditation may work for some people…not for me.”
Consider this, the metaphor for meditation in this discussion exists within a symbolic home—your spiritual home. As you stood at the doorway you had been waiting for a predetermined event created within your intellectual mind. You are now being gently offered a new choice—come to the window, sit quietly. Gaze outside at the beauty that rests before you—light dancing upon leaves, breezes created by butterfly wings, a bee buzzing upon a flower. And imagine…that through that porous glass that was once particles of sand, you can breathe. In your mind’s eye watch the glass become permeable.
Begin with a focused breath, a deep inhale; imagine inhaling the word and the emotions connected to patience. Feel each letter flow into your being . . . p a t i e n c e . . . hold and embrace the concept of patience in the confines of your body, and then in a release, exhale—a full breath out—as you let go of . . . e x p e c t a t i o n . . . As you inhale, envision what patience means to you and allow those images to flow toward you. Again, patience is your inhale—calm, serenity, peace. Expectation is your exhale—judgment, anxiety, worry. One breath replaces the other in an exchange of perception. Inhale deeply—patience, letter-by-letter. Exhale—expectation, letter-by-letter. Your breathing becomes a mantra bringing forth a new awareness, patience in—expectation out. Patience in—expectation out.
As you mind-fully practice this breathing, imagine opening to Spirit, inner guidance and wisdom, self-knowing, comfort and love. As these images fill your heart-center create a thoughtful intention—a vision of your enlightenment. Holding that within your heart, in your mind’s eye begin to open the symbolic window within your spiritual home, imagine the wood frame, the heaviness and old layers of paint causing the window to hold for a moment. Visualize the release and expansion of opening. Imagine this slight space—almost imperceptible and yet—something has changed, a shift has occurred—an exchange—the blush of warm air or the tingle of cool air. Feel the sweet breeze, oxygen rich, carrying new scents to your spiritual home. You have just succeeded; you have begun to access your higher self and the vast unknown energy. For a short time, you leave your everyday thoughts and open to something else. You have successfully meditated.
Perhaps in your previous expectations you had imagined the window opening dramatically and widely—accompanied by a rush of fresh, salty sea air. Please know this—bringing your soul to an enlightened place, most often, comes quietly and begins with a whisper of the faintest and most delicate of breezes.